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Meredith: [voiceover] The key to surviving a surgical internship is denial. We deny that we're tired, we deny that we're scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed. And most importantly, we deny that we're in denial. We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth right in front of our faces.

Derek: Addison kissed me. Meredith kissed me. My girlfriend and my wife kissed me on the same day.

Bailey: McDreamy, go sit by someone who cares.

Addison: Well isn't this cozy. Can I join or are you not in to threesomes?

Meredith: I have to go.

Derek: Meredith... [To Addison] You really are Satan, you realize that right? If Satan were to take physical form he'd be you, everywhere ... all the time.

Addison: I am not Satan.

Derek: How come you haven't gotten on your broomstick and gone back to New York where you belong?

Addison: Stop being petty.

Derek: Stop being an adulterous bitch.

Addison: You know there was a time when you thought of me as your best friend—

Derek: There was a time that I thought you were the love of my life. Things change.

Addison: Derek, have you ever thought that even if I am Satan and an adulterous bitch that I still might be the love of your life?

Meredith: You've got a wife.

Derek: Yes.

Meredith: Your life is complicated.

Derek: Yes.

Meredith: I don't need complicated, I have complicated all on my own.

Derek: Yes.

Meredith: Stop saying yes.

Derek: I'll try not to make any sudden movements.

Meredith: You think this is funny?

Derek: Addison is leaving. She doesn't have any more patients in this hospital. There's no reason for her to be here.

Meredith: No reason?

Derek: None whatsoever.

George: You're officially AWOL you know.

Cristina: I'm working. I'm trying to figure out what's going on with the crazy woman on four.

George: You are the crazy woman on four.

Cristina: I made a break for freedom.

Nurse Tyler: Ok Yang, how about this order: bed rest, out of bed to chair, bathroom privileges. Nothing about stealing charts at the nurses’ station.

Cristina: Ok, you know what [signals to man pushing a wheelchair] Hey, hey, hey, hey give me that. [Sits down] There, satisfied? I'm out of bed to chair.

Nurse Tyler: I'm telling your intern on you.

Cristina: Meredith?

Nurse Tyler: Yeah.

Cristina: Oh, I'm so scared.

Addison: [sighs] It's hard to accept the end when you're too close. [fiddles with wedding ring] Look, I don't want someone who doesn't want me, Meredith, but if there's the slightest chance that he does... I'm not leaving Seattle.

[Cristina is crying uncontrollably]

Cristina's Mother: I knew she'd break sooner or later, it's just a matter of time.

Cristina: [yelling] I will kill her!

Meredith: We don't do well with mothers here, why don't you come back later? [escorts Cristina's mother out]

Meredith: [voiceover] Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world. Head on, guns blazing. De Nile. It's not just a river in Egypt, it's a freakin' ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?