ALL THE SHADES OF GREY...............................................................................
Talk about ironic. Meredith Grey is currently the color grey. And currently living in dead people's world with Denny and Bomb Squad Guy (aka Dylan). And Derek is freaking out. And Izzie is being optimistic. And Cristina...well, I think Cristina may have a heart attack. Seriously. Tonight's episode was fantasticly amazing. Shonda Rhimes is the shit. Seriously. Little demon girl found her mommy (thank God). Jane Doe is still Jane Doe...but...yah. But I'm still scared. Just like last week, I was scared. I am still scared. I'm drowning. On dry land. Because Meredith is dead. Obviously, she's come back to life next week sometime during the episode appropriatley titled "Some Kind of Miracle," but for now, she's dead. With Denny and Dylan. And I think I may want to cry. Because Derek is crying. And Cristina is crying. Derek was her "knight in shining whatever." And Meredith is Cristina's person, which was amazingly brought back again (that made me very happy). There's just so many things I am thinking right now, and my headache is coming back. I'm freaking out. Because my favorite non-real people in the world are freaking out. Dead or alive. And I don't like the way the promo used "devastating" as the description for next week's episode. That makes me very, very unhappy. I can think of nothing else to say...tonight's episode was just too much for words. But, the bottom line is still: I'm scared.

SEATTLE RAIN™........................................................,,,........................................
i cant breathe. im sitting here in front of my computer and i cant breathe. im shaking and crying and i cant breathe. oh god im dying. just like meredith im dying. i cant die...neither can merbear. we cant die if we died people would notice...at least people would notice meredith. well anywho this isnt about me its about greys anatomy and how wonderful amazing spectacular so good that i dont even care about proper grammar and spelling. screw proper grammar and spelling. i cant even breathe so who cares if i can spell meredith cant die or not. i dont. oh my sweet mother of all things majestic. meredith cant die right? i know i asked this last week but this week she actually did die. and she saw dylan and denny...which might i add i was so excited to see. i screamed when i saw mcbombsquadboy. and i quote "baby youre back" i had a cristina moment. seriously this episode was the most wow episode ever. im shocked and amazed and shaking and still cant breathe. im "drowning on dry land" derek crying...i bawled my eyes out. these are the times when you wish you had more kleenex. and then mark [cries] and addison caring...if you want to call it that...haha man oh man im dying here. i cant process a thought and i know im repeating myself but i dont seem to care because all im seeing is meredith with denny and dylan and dying. wow. wow. holy sh!t. they really cant do this to us can they? wow. um im i wow. see this is why i wait a day after to write these things? you know when i have sleep and my eyes arent all red and im not all shaky and dying. and then derek saving her and the demon child finding her mommy and the george finding boy and death all around death...oh my i cant take it. im like speechless. [flatlines]