Alex (narrating): Doesn't matter how tough we are,
trauma always leaves a scar. It follows us home, it changes our lives,
trauma messes everybody up, but maybe that's the point. All the pain
and the fear and the crap. Maybe going through all of that is what
keeps us moving forward. It's what pushes us. Maybe we have to get a
little messed up, before we can step up.
Alex (narrating): Surgeons
are all messed up. We're butchers, messed up knife happy butchers. We
cut people up, we move on. Patients die on our watch, we move on. We
cause trauma, we suffer trauma. We don't have time to worry about all
the blood and death and crap it really makes us feel.
Derek: Hey! Come on in. This is a CT of Katie Bryce. 15 year old female
severed aneurysm.
Meredith: From a fall during rhythmic gymnastics, I remember.
Derek: It was the first surgery we ever scrubbed in together on right?
Our first save. Right here is a treable cysts, tough save but we did
it. I kissed you in the stairwell after the surgery. And this right
here is where Dr. Bailey kicked you out of the surgery because she
caught us in your driveway in my car. And right here this was a
seven-hour craniotomy and you held the clamp the entire time, never
flinched. That's why I knew you were going to be an incredible surgeon.
Beth made our clinical trial a success by surviving. You talked me into
putting her under. That's why I knew I needed you. And this is today.
The post op head CT shows of Izzie Stevens. See that, right there,
tumor free. Because of you. You got me into the OR. If there's a crisis
you don't freeze. You move forward. You get the rest of us to move
forward. Because you've seen worse. You've survived worse. And you
know, we'll survive too. You say you're dark and twisty. It's not a
flaw. It's a strength. It makes you, who you are. I'm not going to get
down on one knee. I'm not going to ask a question. I love you Meredith
Grey. And I want to spend the rest of my life, with you.
Meredith: And I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
Richard: Wait. Um. Wait. No. You can't take that one.
Meredith: Why not?
Richard: I said don't take it.
Meredith: I will take the elevator I want to take.
